you are the King of all things...

im nervous and scared of confused...

teach me something through this...

my son, I love with every ounce of my being...

I struggle to see him so happy about a dress...

I don't understand it, I don't get it...

Lord love him passionately...

show him he the greatness of being a boy...

let me love on him and show him Jesus...

give me peace through this time of me feeling uncomfortable...

teach me something through this...

let me take this feeling and be compassionate towards others when they have no control...


is this what you are teaching me?...

I know I am quick to judge (how can a parent allow that to happen, why are they letting them use an ipad at dinner, why are they letting them cry...

Lord give me patience and compassion towards parents and others, when I don't agree or understand their choices...

Jesus take the wheel of cannons life...

take my son and turn him into the greatest leader of people, lover of Jesus, motivator of souls...

he has the ability to change people...

Lord make him great...

let him lead people to your feet...

let him fall at your feet daily...

let me be compassionate to others, no matter what is going on...

I don't know their situation, they may be struggling...

they may have a child that has some sort of "difference"...

thank you for teaching me this...

Lord let my heard be changed for ever more...

Lord let cannon be a man after your heart...

I pray this phase will pass and that his understanding of gender rolls and his roll in this life will be evident and clear to him...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!

the next...

back to the future...

great movie, great memories, but what really is the future...

we look to tomorrow, next week, month year, with anticipation and expectation...

why though, why can't we live in the now, life today like its today...

we need to look one direction for our future...

UP...

once we understand that the future has no bounds, no restrictions...

once we learn that the future has been set in place by our Father...

then, and only then, can we focus on today, what is today going to be...

we worry, we struggle, we hope, we do all this for a day to come...

planning and being prepared is not the discussion, its the understood and expected...

Lord let my eyes, my mind, and my desires be on today...

be on the immediate know future...

make decisions and plans as needed and not out of expectations or hopes...

Lord protect our future...

wherever and whatever it may look like...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!

finances...

money, money, money....money...

its the often mistakenly represented incorrectly in scripture...

money is not, THE root of all evil...

however, the root of all KINDS of evil...

another words, money can create problems, or the lack of the money can create problems...

having money can cause a person to pursue more, ie, idol...

lack of money can cause a person to be jealous and desire that of others...

so where am i, i often find myself stuck in the middle...

i want more money to provide more and be more comfortable...

but its because i didn't have any and i was jealous and wanted what others have...

Lord, i want to be debt free, i want us to redesign our thoughts and minds around money...

around things, items, appearances...

i want us to use money to help others, to explore this world...

to learn, to grow, to better ourselves for the future...

to better our children for their future...

so as they grow and begin careers, they make good decisions with money...

take our finances and remold it, let us rebuild...

let us be debt free...

lets us sell, move to the right place, and remove debt...

i want you to take over our finances, completely set us free from debt and allow leah and i to be on the same plane with spending...

i want us to rebuild our savings, by the time the kids are 5...

Lord guide our finances in a way that is super natural that i cannot plan or understand...

i want to be free of this disaster, free of payments to others...

thank you for the abilities you have given us, continue to bless us and control our stuff...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!

prayers...

its been years...

but yet im here, im trying to still abide by my own title...

radical...

for the most part this blog will be to 'pen' my prayers...

mondays are for family...

tuesdays are for finances...

wednesdays are for the future...

thursdays are for health...

fridays are for vision of choices and decisions...

so lets us begin on this monday...

Lord, my mind is focused on family...

Leah, Audreylynn, Cannon, Elise...

Josh, Tracy, Wyatt, Avery, Wilson, Graham...

Mom and Dad...

Lord protect each of them, show them health...
love them in a unique and clear way, they can feel and understand its you...

leah, love her, protect her, give her strength, wisdom, and passionate love for directing and teaching our children...

audreylynn, my first born, love her, give her continual health, let her boldness and leadership ability move her to amazing places in her life, let her passion for babies, produce a beautiful loving spirit to teach/lead/mother, let her mind be controlled and convinced by the Holy Spirit, to make decisions pleasing to the Lord...

cannon, my first born, love him, and relieve him from his dry skin/eczema, let his love of adventure, design, ability to have fun; produce a strong, bold and engineered mind to do amazing things. Lord my mind is triggered by certain things, to make me worry, i know he looks to his twin as a leader and has multiple groups of girl friends, Lord i pray that this is a stage of curiosity and adventure. Lord allow my son to be the boy and man you designed him. Let him love you first and foremost. Let him be a Biblical man form inside and out...

elise, my last born, love her, show her your glory. she is so a vibrant girl, with a personality unmatched. let your love engulf her. let her continue to grow and learn life...

let our little family grow and form a unique unbreakable bond over the coming days, months, years, until you call us all home...

let my leadership to my wife and my kids be something they can look to in all aspects of life as a point of comfort and knowledge...

let my love be so infections and pure, they never have a doubt or question of what my desire and purpose in life is, to love them, guide them, and pursue them in being the best person they can be...

Lord, all you are is nothing short of incredible. i often look in a different direction due to my own thoughts and "i can do it" attitude. let my heart, my mind, and my soul look to you in all i do, in all things, and at all times...

thank you Lord for your love and passion for my life. let me take that and show that to my family...

this relationship is going to be radical...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!

the rain storm

a long time gone...

this whole blog thing is not an easy task for me, with great intentions but little action to write...

so what leads me to scribe now you may ask...

recently i was sitting in church in our hometown at Renovatus Church listening to the story of Jacob and Esau...

how Jacob through deception was blessed by his father Isaac instead of Esau...

so it made me realize that we don't truly understand the nature of the Lords blessing...

the Lord has this all out, full of utter excitement, passionate desire to show us and shower us with His blessing...

so what is it about this blessing...

that actual definition of the word is:
the invoking of Gods favor on a person...

Ephesians 3:1 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ...

God desires to show His favor in our lives, and often time we see it, we watch it, yet we leave it...

i feel the Lord gave me a basic childlike understanding of the meaning and idea of how He wants us to view the Blessing in which He so desires for us...

the first thing we must realize is that His blessing is not something that is limited or runs out, EVER...

currently sitting through a rain storm, think of the rain as His blessing, if we walk outside with an umbrella, we see it, we can feel it, yet we block it from actually touching us...

imagine walking out in the rain storm as a child, rain boots on and dancing in the puddles, arms wide open and face towards the sky, wanting to get hit by every drop...

this is the desire and vision the Lord has for us, He wants us to spread our arms wide, lift our face to Him, begging for His blessing, waiting for His blessing...

actually open to receiving His blessing...

i think we are scared of it...

a challenge, spend the next week talking to the Lord, and asking for his blessing to be poured on you in a way that is undeniable...

open your heart, your mind, you soul...

His blessing is full, His blessing is constant, His blessing is beyond what we can imagine...

don't ask for something specific, just asked to receive and understand His true and gracious gift of His blessing...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!

a thousand words

"a post meant to be posted much earlier"

a picture is worth a thousand words, a simple phrase that has great meaning...

confucius, ivan turgenev, napoleon bonaparte, a few greats that once voiced this phrase...

pictures of scenery, animals, people...

living in montana the past 9months, no words can correctly capture the vast beauty of the land that i am surrounded by, it is beyond the reach of your imagination less you visit...

i sat with my parents one afternoon sharing photos, telling stories, trying to form a focused imagery outside the photo of topic to help them understand as best as possible the vastness of the state...

we began to flip through some of the photos and we came across a picture of a buffalo, "SERIOUSLY" my mom squealed in my ear, simply stated, serious, i was inches from a buffalo a creature of mass, a beautiful site at least...

then began to show pictures of my friends and share stories of what we would do till wee hours of the morning...

this can include but not limited to, hucking ourselves off the roof with are planks strapped to our feet landing in a manmade landing zone of the beauty we call snow...

running through the house with sweet moves, flips, and flying through hoops landing on non other the purple lovesac (look them up, they are amazing...

let us not forget, dry ice bombs...

there are many options, many outcomes, and much comradery amongst the 7 of us that live there, as well as the many other souls that consider it a 2nd home...

a house, a home, a community, a life...

a collection of many different cultures, brought together under one idea...

this idea built around one group...

young life...

this idea...

this movement...

Christ...

we need him, we want him, we desire him...

without him we have nothing...

with him we have it all...

nothing that we lack in this life...

we need nothing...

Christ...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!

this thing called prayer...

i realize its been two months since allowing myself to take a few minutes to let my fingers strategically fall in the right place at the right time to form these things called words in a way that makes a sentance in order that my thoughts can be publicised...

on with it i say...

20 years have gone by that i have labled my self a christian, believer, follower of Christ...

as you may well know some of the most talked about topics in the "christian" realm are that of, daily scripture reading, praying, turning from your old ways and becoming a new...

these all seem accomplishable and are very much that...

one thing i have struggled with is what really is prayer?...

is it just talking to God, asking Him for something, thanking, praising...

this past week i heard someone say that prayer doesn't have to be nor should be a monologue but rather a dialogue...

something so simple, yet so very difficult...

we(I) are so caught up in our daily lives, being here on time, turning on the tv at a certain time to watch a show...

why is it that we can't STOP...

not that we shouldn't as scriptures state, pray without ceasing, but when is the last time we actually stopped and truly dialogued with the Creator of our lives, the one that died for us, the one that is...

1 kings 19, tells what i believe is one of the most important lessons we as christians can learn...

the Lord says to Elijah go, stand on the mountain in my presence, cause I AM about to pass by...

a tornado came, the Lord wasn't there...

earthquake came, the Lord again not there...

a massive fire came, again the Lord was not there...

then out of nowhere, there was nothing, no storm, no anything, only the sound of a gentle whisper...

which in hebrew is translated litterally to be ''the sound of sheer silence''...

there the Lord was and spoke with him...

i want to clearly state the Lord still communicates with us in our busyness...

you can agree that it is amazing to hear the Lord amoungst the craziness of our lives, can you imagine what would happen if we took the time to STOP...

what then would He tell you!?! how much would He tell you!?!...

He wants to have a conversation with us, but we are often to wrapped up in our world to take time to just be His child, let him teach us with out interuption, with out distractions, with out...

He wants to be our dad which is simply focused quality time...

just Him and you...

do we realized how powerful a statement that is...

the Creator of the universe wants us to STOP and listen and spill and love and worship and be with Him and nothing no one else...

STOP and listen, silence is golden...

we are our a journey to grow...

its a journey worth taking, no questions, no gimmicks, no doubts, just "RAD"

its over, now what!